Passion Truths

When my mirror challanged me that I am no longer passionate about my work, I opposed.

But later, I thought again. I wasn't.. anymore. The mirror was right.

When I discovered the joy of digital design, years ago, it filled my life with passion. That scale and density of passion is missing now; after it turned into a profession where I think less of design and more of clients and employees, projects and banking.. etc etc etc.

Business is not my passion. Creativity is.....

Money is just a need. It is again not my passion... I want to earn well so that I can do what I love to do. But when I dont love to do anything, money is just a source of fulfilling needs.

I guess I am no longer passionate about my present state of business..
I am doing it because that is my bread and butter.
It will continue to work hard on it as a my main business activity.
But ... it is presently not my passion anymore.

What am I passionate about? now-a-days.... guess romance, love? Yes, to an extent, I am driven by my heart. Though it seems so to me, but to be honest, on second thoughts.. ... maybe not really. I see my drive waving at times. I see myself less passionate towards my ladylove when I see limitations all around me. It isnt easy - at times. I want to have freedom of time, which I guess I cannot.

In the matters of heart, I sometimes feel I have given in to be tamed, and taming isnt about real passion.

The drive is no longer as strong as it was sometime ago. Same goes for work. The reasons could be many. I can argue with myself for hours on the reasons, causes and effects, but thats useless.

Guess I need a passion that can drive me wild to an extent that I pursue it with all my energy.

I need a passion that makes me fearlessly move towards it. I dont like goal related passions.. Once the goal is reached, passion flies out. I guess I need a path of passion to follow, to move it with all along.

When I look back, I can see that all the turning points of my life were driven by some strange urge to follow my drive. And whenever my drive slowed down, I managed to jump to something really excited me.

I developed some interest in travel recently and guess I would try it sometime soon, when I get some extra money and time.

I need to go. To fly. To re-ignite the fire in the belly.

Maybe I need to live a little more, a little longer, and a little more to my satisfaction.